Answer?

Why do the numbers on the phone go down while the numbers on calculators go up?

Thank God its Malaria.

Finally after being sick for almost 20 days, I am healthy and almost back to normal life. Going through anti-biotics, asprins, paracetemols, tylenols, Ibuprofen and 2 bloodtests...the doctor(s) were clueless about whats wrong with me and why am I getting high fevers over and over again. Then, they gave me Malaria medicines....even though it wasn't confirmed. This time I was really hoping that it is malaria...so I can get cured atleast. coz if it isn't malaria what the hell is it? And since I couldn't take care of myself here, I went to Austin, Tx, where I relished on peaceful life at my cousin's home, with home food and lots of movies to watch or just lie on the couch reading.
Also at Austin, I was in touch with 3 doctors- one my cousin's friend, one from India and my dad himself who I can call a Dr. without a degree, hehe. Only after all three agreed, I was taking my medicines, sleeping, resting and keeping the three up to date. Finally the moment came, I had NO fever for 2 straight days. IT WAS MALARIA, YES! I thought it was all over and was ready to pack my bags and head back to school, but the three said No. I had to have 48 crucial hours of complete bed rest and see that the fever never comes back. coz if it did, it was something very serious and I would be flying back to India for further treatment. My cousin didn't let me leave the house either. And I think that was a really a good decision. For one, I finished watching the whole season one of Lost and got totally hooked on to it. 2nd, my Jijaji was coming to Austin, and I got to meet him and get all the goodies that my sister sent me. 3rd I got to do a little shopping and spend more time with my cousin!

The biggest loss for me from this 20 days of sickness was not the time or missing school or feeling sick....I lost weight :'( It took me one year to put on just a little weight and I lost all that in 20 days. And I feel weak and low on energy too. This was the biggest side effect of malaria medicines- loss of appetitie. And this will go on for another 14 days, since I am still on medication to prevent another attack from the virus that might be hiding in my liver now. And that means no Alcohol either....
Oh well, after that....I am going to push my stomach to the limit, Eat a lot and a lot healthier. Work out like crazy and get that energy back.

This week has been good. I came back from Austin and had to face 2 exams and one practice one. I did great on all my exams and thats really boasted my hopes for this quarter!

Dreams Dreams, no one else could see....

I read an article in the Reader's Digest Magazine on dreams. There are somethings that I could relate to the article instantly because of some very recent events. The article talks about latest research on Dreams and how this anthropologist kept a journal of more than 5000 dreams and analysing them.

The article says that dreams are a way for the subconscious to communicate with the consious mind. Dreaming about of something you're worried about, is the brain's way of helping you rehearse for a disaster in case it occurs. In a way dreaming is a mood regulatory system. Not only this, artists looking for inspiration simply dream of a future show and wake up with plenty new ideas. This article further talks about lucid dreaming ( being fully aware that they are dreaming) Lucid dreaming can 'help' people control their dreams and go to their fantasy world. I think we all know LSD induced lucid dreaming affected sooo many rock bands in the hippie era (and came out with some brilliant work, hehe) before it became illegal.

I first didn't really agree with all that the article said, but then I thought, i never get nightmares or even bad dreams when I happy or stress free. But when I am stress or tensed, all sort of weird dreams come to my mind....I think almost all of us have had dreams the night before exam of how we missed the exam.

More recently, while I have been sick for a good 11-12 days with fever and have been sleeping and resting a lot, I realized I am really having very depressing dreams. Like one of them was, suddenly I am all alone on campus without friends, when I awoke I tried sleeping again but cudn't so I was just lying ard....but that dream was coming to me in thoughts....really depressing thoughts.....at times I just got sick of these thoughts and just talked to someone online. And on friday after spending hours in student wellness centre and after that just lying ard till nite, I was just plainly frustrated with my thinking and thoughts- may be lucid dreaming, coz i was trying hard to sleep. Finally, I said I have to find a solution to this, and thought some company would do the job and i went to my computer and the only person online was nicole, I requested her to accompany me for dinner....She did agree even though she already had dinner. I went to donatos to eat, and just chatted with her, catching up on time....And really, I felt a LOT better!!! Thanks Nicole!!

And now I am in Austin, at my cousin's, trying to recover what Docs say might be malaria..The side effects of the medcine are throwing up and gorgy feeling, both of which I am feeling.....AND I am unable to sleep for some reason. (may be one of those unsaid side effects!!!) I just slept 6-8 hours in last 2 days. I can see Ankit's and my cousin Aayush's horrified looks, both of them sleep for good 10-12 hrs a day! And now I can understand y they sleep so much.....they have sooo many problems they need to find solution to...hehe! While I am deprived of sleep, I will have less dreams too....oh well, I just can't wait to be healthy now.

Main.

Hum hi hum hai,
humare kaun hote?

Tum hi tum ho,
tumhare kaun hain?

tan, man, lagn hai,
phir yeh tanhai kyon hai?

Sick.

Its been 5 days since I came back from India. And I have been sick all these five days. First day was the worse, I got up in the morning feeling sooo weak that I really felt like a log...unable to move at all. I was scared because I was shivering too inspite my room temperature being 80 deg. I drank some water which got some life in me. And I took courage to walk to the wellness centre by myself...it was very early in the morning and they checked me, I had a fever of 102! I was shocked and started feeling really scared about getting soo sick since I live by myself and have no family around either. After taking the medicines and eating some food, I felt a lot better. I thought, good this is getting over....but I was wrong, next morning, the same thing happened, I woke up feeling very weak but once popping in the pill and some food I felt almost fine through the day.
Then by the evening I can feel my body temperature rising and by the morning I am sick again.
This has been happening ALL these 5 days.....and I absolutely hate this state of mine. I am able to go to my classes because I feel fine in the day but by evening I can feeling my temperature rising.

I was hoping it would get fine after I finish my dose of5 days. But its been back to square one. Stupid Doctors....I don't know what to do....I want to cry but I am too weak for that too. :'(